My new wisdom wednesday video is now up! Bit late I know! 😞 just been so busy!!!
Monday 19th September: I start University! I’ve wanted to go for SO long!
I feel that the course is the right one for me and even though I live a train and then a bus ride away from campus, I don’t regret my choice.
Leeds Beckett University: Digital Journalism.
I love everything digital: cameras, game consoles, computers, gadgets and I love blogging! So the mix seemed perfect!
I can’t wait to finish setting up my office! Currently, I am sitting on a cushion on the floor while I type away. (Eye roll) Not the most cumfy of positions! The kinks you get in your neck are awful!
But soon everything will fall into place and my adventure will begin!
I can’t wait!
How are you?
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It’s so good to be back! I know it’s been a while since my last post but I have been going through a difficult period in my life and this post today is just to update you on what’s been going on.
For the past few months (seven) I have been suffering from depression. It took me a long time to realise what I was going through and it took even longer for me to actually ask for help. I felt ashamed and angry that once again I had delved into the black pit that seems to never end. It was at school when I first suffered from this illness and I had sought help and happily recovered. Since then I had been able to manage my emotions, even though I still had my dark days.
It was only a few weeks ago that I realised that I was suffering from depression again. Everything had built up until I couldn’t breathe and I wanted to die. But, I refused to let this ‘thing’ beat me. I couldn’t do it to my family, to my fiancée. I went to the doctor and she helped me to organise counselling and gave me some medication, and after a few weeks the dark days don’t seem so dark anymore. I actually have light in my life! I have a wonderful, loving family! A fiancée who loves me and I have the power to change my life.
I have applied to university and will be attending in September to do Digital Journalism. I am excited and nervous but the change in direction will be good for me. Doing what makes me happy is what matters right now. All the positives are a step forward to my recovery and I know that it will take time, I will have my dark days, but I will be okay. I’ll fight through it until the dark days evaporate!
I just want to say to the people who are like me, suffering in silence…don’t! Don’t be scared or ashamed of how you feel! Talk to someone, anyone! Don’t hold inside your inner demons! Even when you have help it’s okay to not feel like smiling! Don’t feel weak for getting help, because you deserve to be happy! We all do!
Just remember there are people who love and cherish you! Be you and be happy! You are a smart, beautiful, talented person who deserves everything that they want in life! Love yourself!
I love you, so should you!